“God is always doing 10,000 things in your life, but you may be aware of three of them” (John Piper)
Some days I feel God’s presence in nearly every aspect of my life and other days I am in a fog of frustration because I simply don’t feel His presence. While I KNOW that He is always here with me (Deuteronomy 31:8 – “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”, John 1:14 – “And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth.”), sometimes I just don’t feel it. I guess that’s part of being human and living in a fallen world though. We are not always going to “feel” God working in our lives, but that’s where FAITH comes into play.
Lately I’ve been learning a lot about faith. Since graduating college, I have encountered lots of change. Mainly getting married and moving from North Carolina to Minnesota, and if you know me at all, you know that I love consistency and control. That said, change isn’t really my forte (not that it’s anyones). However, through all of this change in my life God has been teaching me now more than ever to have faith in His provision.
God has shown His provision many time in the 6 short months since I graduated college, yet I still have the tendency to doubt His provision. I have realized that often times I think of God’s faithfulness in a selfish way, trying to see how it shows up in my day to day life. This past month, however, I have been ever so convicted on how I view God’s provision in my life. First and foremost, His provision is not my provision. He has, does, and will provide, but the beauty of it is that He provides in a way I would never imagine. Philippians 4:19 says, “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus”…ACCORDING TO HIS RICHES IN GLORY IN CHRIST JESUS. Wow — so humbling! Now don’t get me wrong I’ve definitely read this truth before, but re-reading this truth during a time in my life when all is changing has really helped me to take a step back and understand the gravity of the verse. In the past, I’ve tried to control any and everything I could in my life (relationships, my body image, my future, you name it), but somehow everything I try to control backfires or falls through and something infinitely better ends up unfolding down the line. So even though I have the tendency to doubt God’s provision in the midst of the challenging seasons of life I am constantly learning to have faith and hold onto Him even tighter during those times, because the life He is orchestrating for me has been, is, and will continue to be greater than anything I could plan on my own.
Throughout this season of newness and change God has also been reminding me of His ULTIMATE provision. The most important act of faithfulness and provision He has ever given me is Himself (just sitting here thinking about that leaves me in tears). As I sat at home one day doubting God’s provision in my life, I “stumbled” upon this quote from John Piper: “What is the deepest root of your joy? What God gives to you? Or what God is to you?” In that moment, God opened my eyes to the fact that throughout these life-changes my perspective had been all wrong. Instead of focusing on Him and dwelling on the FACT that He alone IS enough, I had been focusing on myself, my desires for my life, and how He was going to provide in the way I thought He should. But the whole time I was overlooking the basic truths that He is all I need and His ULTIMATE provision of salvation is sufficient for me.
He is the creator of the world (John 1:3- “All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made”).
He is all powerful (Jeremiah 32:17 – “ ‘Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you”).
He is the author of salvation (Hebrews 2:10 – “For it was fitting that he, for whom and by whom all things exist, in bringing many sons to glory, should make the founder of their salvation perfect through suffering”).
God IS our salvation (John 11:25-26 – “Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?”).
All of those verses tell us more about WHO GOD IS. I don’t know about you, but those verses leave me in awe. God leaves me in awe. What more could we possibly dream of?! He has already provided us with more than we will ever be able to comprehend in who He is, alone. He is Creator. He is All-Powerful. He is the Author of Salvation. He IS our salvation!
He is without measure and He is invasive in every aspect of our lives, so take heart and be encouraged! He is present and providing in our lives in ways that are FAR beyond our comprehension, because that is the God that we serve.
As I stumble my way through this time of change I am realizing more and more that life in this imperfect world is going to be filled with change and the “unexpected” for all of us, but my prayer is that through it all we would be overwhelmed by the simple fact that we have a God who has provided us with EVERYTHING we could possibly need in Himself alone (Psalm 90:2- “Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God”).
So Lord, as we encounter change and the “unexpected” help us to dive deeper into the truths of your word, understand your character in ways we haven’t before, and help us to grow to be more like you. Give us your eyes to help us see that we are being refined by your wisdom, holiness, perfect love, abundant grace, and sovereignty. And Heavenly Father, overwhelm our hearts with JOY because we are your chosen people, a holy nation, a people for your own possession. Let us proclaim the excellencies of him who called us out of darkness into his marvelous light (1 Peter 2:9).